“It seems no matter how I try I become more difficult to hold.
I am not an easy woman to want.”
—Nikki Giovanni, Cotton Candy on a Rainy Day
I am not an easy woman to want. On occasion, I can be a piece of work. Chasing after me is like attempting to grab a Slinky on a stairwell.
I am not the type of girl to always smother you in kisses, or smother social media with pictures of us. I can be distant at times, perhaps seemingly cold, as I am off in my own fast-paced world of thoughts and visions that are meteoric in nature. Quickly going as they come.
Love is the only mental roadblock that slows me down. It forces me back to the present, and what I’m feeling right here, right now…
I relate to the Tin Man’s pain. Like Dorothy, I believe he had a heart all along, but no idea what to do with it. Being practical, love goes against the grain of this mindset. It defies logic and shatters previous personal beliefs.
I am not an easy woman to want, but deep down I know I am worth it, even on days when you feel the coldness of my dark side.
Understand that there are two sides to me, and neither one means you harm. My thoughts may be fleeting, but never my love for you.